Sunday, February 28, 2010

Just A Little Peyton Place...

The world of Facebook. Oh My!

I seem to be in up to my neck.

Let's start with what you know...
Loretta was pissed at a mutual friend. I actually knew it before Loretta told me.
Becuz of the mutual friend's status on Facebook!
I didn't actually know it was about Loretta but I knew that some bitch at pissed off OurFriend!
And of course no names were mentioned, I had an inklyin' it was Loretta... and it played for a couple of days. Like most things, we all move on with the more important things in life.

Get Back Loretta...It was a joke!
Move on.

My brother announced his elopement on facebook...classy.

His kids were pissed. The dumbbitch he married has been livin' with him for awhile now so they just made it legal. She doesn't have a facebook page becuz she knows that I and RubyJune won't befriend her. We have his ExWife. We weren't too fond of her when they were married but's okay.

We've moved on...matured....a great deal.

No Really, I have!

What you don't know...
When I first went online way back in 2000, I lurked.
I was not in a good place in my life and had not been happy for a while so I didn't want to "socialize". I didn't want to have to explain things and I just didn't know how folks would feel about me or anything that I did. I just stayed in the shadows of my own little world of self pity and rejection. Many people I know have said to me, "I don't think I could ever do what you did." People are very judgemental and when they do not know the whole story, they make their own assumptions, which is hurts to the core.

I am still very sensitive to it now, 12 years later.

When I could see that my life was in order and I could see the light at the end of the tunnel I started bloggin', as a way of ventin', which helps me a great deal. I had no idea when I started bloggin' that I would become friends with people....some very good people.
I still don't explain things but I feel better about me...some how that makes it easier to deal with the outside world. Like I don't have a bright orange NeonSign over my head flashin' at the world...anymore.

I held my head high knowin' I did the right thing.

And that's all I'm gonna say about that!

On the outside of my little world that I have built around the Hightower, some people that I know, live their lives based on lies and assumptions about me and Roy.
Like my youngest's daughter's boyfriend. He's fathered 2 boys with her. She listened to her mother and didn't marry the deadbeat. I wanted her to be able to take her things and leave when she needed messy divorce, just leave.
Otherwise I keep my mouth shut. The last thing I want is for her to be beat over something I said.
Well she kicked him out after a DUI and a stay in jail. This is the second time...and so far the last.
But not before he lashed out at me.
On his first day out of jail, he sat down at a PC and went to sayin' all sorts of trashy things about me and my family. EudoraMae spent most that evening deletin' everything he put out publicly. But she could not stop him from sendin' me the most nasty, most hurtful private email that he could.

I stopped dead right there....I'm not doing this again.

I have put all this behind me.
And this is what all these people think and talk about??
I lashed out at the people that perpetuated the lies becuz if that is what people still think after I have alienated myself from all my family to stand beside what was right....then they can all go to Hell. I'm done.

But this time, everyone circled the wagons... around me.
From the top to the bottom of the family, all the ladies stepped forward this time, to side with me and what was right.
My oldest daughter was beside herself. She said, "I have lost 12years of my life with my mom, and I don't want some jerk stirring up stuff that we've let go."

So we've moved on....into a better place.

Isn't Facebook just Fascinating?!

Yea, I know...not all shits and giggles.


MizAngie said...

My Nadine is growing up! Ha!! Isn't it FABULOUS when you hit that spot in your life when you absolutely don't give a shit what fringe people think, and realize you don't need anyone's approval or permission anymore? I think that's the ONLY good thing about aging. People who love ya are gonna love ya. People who don't will eventually find some reason to show it. Fuck 'em and the horse they rode in on.

Big Dog Mom Pam said...

Oh, Nadine, I'm sooo with you on this one. Can I give an Amen to you sister? The high school drama that rears its ugly head even after we've been out of school for over almost (gasp!) 30 years. The family drama that just won't go away. Yikes. Personally, I like bloggin better because nobody knows it's really me . . . .

Katy said...

I try to keep all my drama to myself--it's hard sometimes, but I do try.

My brother got married last week and only parents were invited. I understood. But then his wife updated her Facebook page and he still hadn't called to tell me that the thing had gone down. I sent him a strongly worded e-mail that basically said, "sisters should hear before people your wife used to work with." He was nice about it and called me right up and apologized.

Sherrie said...

You know..........I've never met ya.....but you are one of my favourite people on earth. Even better? You're real, love ya girl.