And I'm not talkin' about havin' her legs.....and I do.....UGH!!!
My sister, RubyJune, said that my mother is writin' her memoirs.
It's a fantasy.
Mom doesn't want anyone to read it until she dead. That way we can't bitch at her!!
RubyJune doesn't want to read it. I told her to give it to me, I'll read it.
I just hopes it's not in a blog for the whole world to see!!!
What RubyJune does know....it's all about a couple of teens madly in love that get married and raise 3 beautiful children together.
Yeah right!!!!! I was there!!
My Dad was a single parent that worked his ass off to keep up sheltered from her craziness. We lived with my grandparents becuz Daddy's work schedule was irratic.
It was a good life. We had horses, motorcycles, and went fishin' and water skiin'....all the time! One year, he had us out at the lake from April to October. There was talk about wet suits so we could go all year 'round.
Most importantly, he was there.
What part of my life that my mother was in....is more like something outta "Mommy Dearest"!! For the record, we were never beat with wire hangers....my mother's damage was more psychological.....and bunch of little things that stick with me.
But the most profound thing that sticks in my head was something my dad said.
We were on the way to a baseball game for my brother. He and I stopped at a DairyQueen...in a strange town...when a car pulls up beside us.
Out of the blue, Daddy said, "See that woman."
And points over to the car. "She is the one that should have been your mother."
I was speechless...which for a 13 year old that is saying a lot....for me...VOLUMES!! Daddy was always tellin' me to sit down and shut up....I was "Coachin'" my brother and sister ...and embarrassin' him. God forbid anyone look at him!!
He went on to say that he had dated her in high school.
She smiled and waved.
He waved at her....neither spoke to each other.
The woman was an aunt of a classmate of mine.
NO WONDER I WAS INVITED TO THAT BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!!
I was being shown off!!!!
"See what your child would have looked like!" kinda thing!!!!
After Daddy died, Mom talked about him like he was the Devil! And I think mostly that was for the benefit of her Lesbian lover. Becuz now that the lover died...Daddy has reached Sainthood!
Some things never change....I have never known if I was comin' or goin' with her.
It's a vicious cycle. I have mother issues. My daughter has mother issues.
Insanity Runs in the Family!