Thursday, February 22, 2007

All Along the Hightower

"There must be some kind of way out of here." Said the joker to the thief.

Some times, things are not what it seems....Shit happens.
Loved ones die.
Teenagers lie.
Families ripped apart.
There is no God.
Justice is not only blind but ignorant.
Lives are damaged forever.
And it seems like there is not way to cope.
Would it be better to lay down and die?
Would it be better to run that little red car under a semi and end it all?

"There's too much confusion, I can't get no relief."
"Businessman, they drink my wine. Plow men dig my earth. None will level on the line. Nobody of it is worth."

Everyone says kind things to your face. They don't mean it when you are the talk of the the newspaper....on TV.
There are whispers.
Death threats.
The mailbox rundown....what's next?
The is dog is killed.
The light at the end of the tunnel is nothing but a freight train comin' to run you down.
There is a line from a Metallic song, "Rip me open but beware there are things inside without a care."
Aptly fits.
Though I do care and that's why there is so much pain.
I am bitter.

"Hey hey, No reason to get excited." The thief, he kindly spoke, "There are many here among us, Who feel that life is but a joke. But uh But, you and I, we've been through that. And this is not our fate. So let us not talk falsely now. The hours getting late."

Roy is my rock!
Always there.....years of shit heaped upon us.
Thru it all every step of the way....the ups....the downs.

The day he made me get out of bed.
He made me get ready for work.
He took me to work and sat with me until the BossMan came in.
He went home to rest and then he hid all the guns.
That was my suicide watch.

The fall from grace was not easy.
"Just hold your head high!"

Hey,Hey, All along the watchtower.....Princess kept the view.

While all the women came and went. Bare-foot servants too, but huh

You find out who your real friends are when you are under the fire.

Yesterday, we made a major step forward in coming thru the fog....a MONUMENTAL step!!! But still a long road to travel.
Tears were sheds...I am not sure if they were tears of Joy.
Or tears of grief, that we had to go thru it all.
There was no reason for it.

Outside in the cold distance.......A wild cat did growl. Two riders were approachin'........And the wind began to howl.

The winds are changing.
I can breathe again.
I can only hope the that whatever comes I can deal with it as a stronger being than I was.

I choose to blog about the quirky things in life and not the unpleasant.
I am not here for sympathy.
I am not here to plead my case.
I am not here to justify my actions.

I have two choices in how to live my be miserable or to be happy.

I choose to be happy.
I choose to make the best of what is thrown at me.
I choose not to have miserable people in my life.
I choose to sing and dance though I can not carry a tune in a bucket or stay in step.
I choose to blog about oddball everyday life.
I see no point in hurting others.
Life is too short.

Hey Oh All along the watchtower........Hear you sing, around the watch.

Gotta beware! Gotta beware!

I will.
I keep a constant vigil.
Thanks Jimi! For the perfect song....or maybe thanks to Bob!

All along the Highhtower.


mannyed said...

I'm so emailing you right this very second...

Diane said...

Hi Hun: What's up?? This doesn't sound very good. What's wrong hun? Send me an email if you need to talk....wish I was right there to give you a great big squishy hug right now.
Hang on tight!!

Sherrie said...

Nadine......thanks for sharing this with us, a little peek into another side of "you", in some odd way it helps to be reminded that all of us have our day to day struggles. Lately I've had far too many, and sometimes feel so overwhelmed with the unpleasantess that is tossed in our way for us to trip over. You are always so positive and funny but that doesn't mean you aren't human. Just a kind soul, bringing so many of us relief from all that is unpleasant. I thank you daily for that. As you always tell me girl, I'm only an email away if you need to natter. ~hugs~

Jeankfl said...

Hope it's not as bad as this sounds..If I can help, email me at I know that town, some..I do hope it's getting better.

big dog mom pam said...

Nadine - I tried to leave a comment yesterday, but Blogger wasn't allowing me. Pfft! Anyway, I am worried about you. Hope everything is working out. I'm sending prayers and hugs your way.

Anonymous said...

hey hey i'm back did you miss me ???? i had a great time the weather was nice a little cool in the morning then as always by 11 am strip the clothes the suns out and it's hot....but at least it was 67 so not as bad as the 80's :) i did talk to my ex he was part of the iron chef competition for food network and he won on saturday but not on sunday. To my knowledge they should air the episode on monday but i'm not sure lovely to put him thru the school go thru all the hard beginnings then not reap all the bennies when he's famous hehe ok i better get to work loads to do hugs ~PPA~

Beth said...

ooh, yes do you ever find out who your friends are when you are under fire. and some of them truly suck.

Heads up babe!